>hello sorry i haven't communicated with u for awhile.. but i've been really >busy with scfhool work.. i understand all that u have said.. and as a matter >of fact i do read the Gita by his divine grace.. i understand that we are >just souls who are independent and pure bliss within ourselves abd thus we >should be dependent upon no other than Lord Krsna.. yet i have this demon >in the form of a doubt.. i know that there i a God yet sometimes I ask >myself how can there be a person that is the one who has created everything.. >that exists in this world.. its a question i don not like to ask but it is >something that i must deal with and cannot be avoided.. please tell me how >to specifically dispell this rumour.. > >soon i will be going back home since school will be over so u can send me some >mail at ...thanx.. > > Dear Chris Hello. Hare Krishna! Yes. It is an interesting problem. It is very difficult to understand the source of everything is a person, the Supreme Personality of Godhead, Krishna. Krishna says in the Bhagavad-gita: manusyanam sahasresu kascid yatati siddhaye yatatam api siddhanam kascin mam vetti tattvatah "Out of many thousands among men, one may endeavor for perfection, and of those who have achieved perfection, hardly one knows me in truth." So it is not an easy thing to understand Krishna, the cause of all causes, is a person. It is relatively easy to become liberated. To understand everything is spiritual and blissful, to have some conception of the all-pervasive energy of Krishna, but to understand a young cowherd boy playing with His friends in Vrndavana could be the cause of all causes is difficult. It sometimes even bewilders very great personalities like Lord Indra [the king of Heaven and the controller of rain]. When Krishna was personally on the planet 5,000 years ago He spent His childhood in Vrndavana, a village in India. He appeared like the other cowherd boys, but He was special. Krishna has all the attractive qualities in full, He has all knowledge, all strength, all beauty, all fame and all renunciation. So He became the center of attention for everyone at Vrndavana. In India it is the custom to worship various demigods [the demigods are in charge of different departments in the material world: the wind, the rain, the ocean, the moon, etc]. In Vrndavana the main business was dairy farming and growing grains therefore they were very dependent on regular rain. So they used to hold a very big yajna [sacrifice] every year to satisfy Indra. The idea was to please Indra so he would supply regular rain. But Krishna wanted to establish the fact it is not necessary to worship the demigods separately, for they are all part and parcel of Krishna. The example is supplying food to the body or water to a tree. The food is supplied to the stomach and the water to the roots of the tree. In this way the whole body [or tree] is satisfied. It is not that you have to water every part of the tree separately or feed every part of the body. Simply by supplying water to the root or food to the stomach all the parts of the tree or body are automatically satisfied. Similarly simply worshipping Krishna automatically satisfies all the demigods [and everyone else in the creation as well]. So Krishna asked his father to stop the Indra Yajna and instead perform a sacrifice for the local Brahmans and Goverdhana Hill... Because everyone was so attracted to Krishna in Vrndavana, although he was only a boy of about seven years old at that time, they agreed and stooped the Indra Yajna and instead performed the Yajna for the local Brahmans and Goverdhana Hill... Lord Indra was watching all this, and he became very angry. Although Indra is one of Krishna's devotees, he couldn't recognize this little cowherd boy called Krishna in Vrndavana was his worshipable Lord. He was very annoyed that Krishna had convinced the residents of Vrndavana not to offer the traditional Indra- Yajna... He called for the most vicious clouds and ordered them to inundate Vrndavana with water... So there was a huge flood. Everyone was looking to Krishna to save them from the wrath of Indra. So Krishna, appearing like a seven year old cowherd boy, picked up Goverdhana Hill with the little finger of His left hand and used it as a giant umbrella to shelter the residents of Vrndavana from the rain. He held up the hill like this for seven days and by this time Indra, his plans to drown all the residents of Vrndavana having been frustrated, could understand Krishna is the Supreme Personality of Godhead, his worshipable Lord... So he stopped the rain and came down to the earth and bowed down before Krishna and begged forgiveness for his offense and offered Krishna very nice prayers. It was an incredible sight to see, Indra, the King of heaven with all his opulent clothing and kingly dress bowing down in front of Krishna, who appeared as a seven year old cowherd boy... So it is not an easy thing to understand, even very great demigods become bewildered, but it is a fact. Krishna is a person and everything emanates from Him. It is our practical experience in this world as well. Even though I don't know your parents, I know you have a mother and a father, everyone has a mother and a father, and they are also people. You don't come from anything impersonal. So if you trace it right back to the beginning you will find Krishna, the Supreme Personality of Godhead. He is the original person, He says in the Bhagavad-gita (10.8): aham sarvasya prabhavo mattah sarvam pravartate iti matva bhajante mam budha bhava-samanvitah "I am the source of all spiritual and material worlds. Everything emanates from Me. The wise who know this perfectly engage in My devotional service and worship Me with all their hearts." The rumor you have heard, that ultimately everything is impersonal, is a very strong one. Mostly people prefer this idea to accepting a personal form of God. It is because we have come here to the material world to try and become God ourselves. We want to be the controller, we want to be powerful... So we prefer to believe there is no one more powerful than us... But it is maya, illusion. God, Krishna, is a person, the Supreme Person. He has all the personal qualities you and I have also. He gets angry sometimes, He likes to fight sometimes, He has His friends, His parents, everything. Of course Krishna is never born, so how could He have parents? But some of His devotees want to have Krishna as their child, so He appears as their child. It is called yoga-maya. It is a bewildering potency of Krishna. We are generally bewildered by maha-maya, the material energy. Maha-maya gives us the impression we can be happy independently from Krishna but yoga-maya allows a devotee to accept Krishna as his son and Krishna to accept a devotee as His father. The devotee doesn't know Krishna is the Supreme Personality of Godhead, that would spoil the relationship of father and son... It is a very subtle thing and you will come to understand it more and more as you chant: Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna, Krishna Krishna, Hare Hare/ Hare Rama, Hare Rama, Rama Rama, Hare Hare and read Srila Prabhupada's books. I recommend you get "Krishna Book". It is an incredible book. It describes Krishna's pastimes when He was physically present on this planet 5,000 years ago. He spent 125 years on earth and "Krishna Book" describes what He did... It may sound a bit like mythology when you first read it, but things were very different on this planet 5,000 years ago. Our western historians can only give details back to about 1,000 BC, prior to that they have very little knowledge. So "Krishna Book" is real. It describes Krishna killing great demons, and in those days the demons were actually great mystics also, they had great yogic power and they could transform themselves into any form they desired. So such things are possible. Anyhow read it and see what you think. I have one Krishna Book story, "The Killing of the Agasura Demon" on the WWW at: /~balarama/a001.html There are also other things off: /~balarama/wkrishna.html But I suggest you get the book as well... Anyhow have a very Krishna conscious Christmas and New Year. Chant Hare Krishna and be happy! Madhudvisa dasa